36 Weeks

Today was the fun appointment...strep b test...blech! Also, my first cervical exam...ouch! I'm a little crampy now. But, let's look on the uber bright side! I am 3 cm dilated and 80% effaced! For those not in the know, you are considered in active labor at 4 cm. So, in a nut shell, Miss Abigail will be here soon. The doctor said there's a 1 in 3 chance I'll have her within the next two weeks, and only a 10% chance that, if she does come this early, she'll spend time in the NICU. He's really hoping we can make it another two weeks, as am I. I've really fallen in love with the idea of a December baby so if we can make it to December 1st, that would be awesome. And perfect timing, incubation wise. But, Dr. Horsley says he'll have to be very gentle with me at my appointment next Wednesday and that I'm going to have to not get too crazy with preparations for Thanksgiving. But, this girl is apparently eager to enter the world, so we'll just have to wait and see. But, the wait shall be short!
Can you believe it?! This has been the longest pregnancy ever! Ok, some (really, a lot) have it way worse so I shouldn't complain. But this pregnancy has been rough on me. Probably because the other two were awesome. I loved being pregnant the first two times. Yes, the morning sickness wasn't fun, but it was short lived. And the last few weeks with Ella were the longest. With Liv, they were fine physically. Emotionally, that's another story. This time, the morning sickness only morphed into relux. And that has stuck around THE WHOLE TIME! I'm out of my meds and insurance is being a pain in the butt so I've been without for two days (I have over the counter stuff, but it's not quite cutting it) and I'm pretty sure my insides are on fire. My hips hurt, my back hurts, I'm exhausted, and I feel ugly 99.9% of the time. I felt pretty for the other two. Then the emotional aspect...it's been weird. First 20 weeks, worry over her heart. Then relief. Then stress, guilt (that's another story I don't feel like telling) excitement, emotional breakdowns, etc.
But, we're here! We're finally to the point where she is almost here! And I am so excited to meet this little girl.